Went for the Halloween Night at the night safari. it was so crowded. Some mums brought young children. Not a very wise thing to do.
Sewing Therapy
6 years ago
Monday, 19 October 2009
Night Safari
Went for the Halloween Night at the night safari. it was so crowded. Some mums brought young children. Not a very wise thing to do.
Sunday, 11 October 2009
Warned
Was warned by the doc to stay off alcohol. Almost frightened everyone to death. Weird thing was that my construction of sentences was still grammatically perfect.
Monday, 14 September 2009
Old treasures in My New camera
I just bought a camera yesterday. Nope, did not get it from Comex. I got it from Best Denki and they gave me all the promotions that was available at comex and also, additional stuff. Very good service. The saleman's name is Emerson. I think he was really enthusiatic. There was even after sales updates and stuff. This is what service should be like!
Anyway, my new camera can take dual shot, one with and one without flash at the same time and it is a great nightshot camera! Jan Jan cannot complain about the flash anymore!
This is a photo that I found in the sim card. It's a very, very interesting mango... Nope, it's not from the Philippines. 
Anyway, my new camera can take dual shot, one with and one without flash at the same time and it is a great nightshot camera! Jan Jan cannot complain about the flash anymore!
This is a photo that I found in the sim card. It's a very, very interesting mango... Nope, it's not from the Philippines.
Saturday, 15 August 2009
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Saturday, 27 June 2009
What I had for past birthdays
1. Flowers from people. Some I know and others I may need to guess.
2. Hong baos from family.
3. Ice-cream cake from mom.
4. Late well wishes SMS from best friend (arrived 1month later)
5. Durians, love and loads of company from sisters.
6. Cousins to take me out for dinner.
7. A trip to the night safari.
8. A trip to the science centre.
9. A surprise trip.
10. A fake promise.
11. A nice and romantic dinner.
12. Many great and loving hugs from family and true friends.
13. Crab dinner ( so much that I developed severe allergy from them for a long time.
14. An absent boyfriend (then) for almost all family held birthday parties.
15. A surprise party from cousins.
16. A present which took a long time to save up for.
17. A bouquet of flowers from my then boyfriend to his ex (said her dog died)... And none for me...
18. A lost charm (brand new)
What can I expect this year then? I know that nick has something for me and jem too. It's very thoughtful of them. Mrs lau, sophia, chia and qili wrote me a card too. Very smart of mrs lau to get qili before she went to greener pastures. Azli sent me an SMS. Honestly I really do not expect much. Maybe it's a harry potter birthday for me...
2. Hong baos from family.
3. Ice-cream cake from mom.
4. Late well wishes SMS from best friend (arrived 1month later)
5. Durians, love and loads of company from sisters.
6. Cousins to take me out for dinner.
7. A trip to the night safari.
8. A trip to the science centre.
9. A surprise trip.
10. A fake promise.
11. A nice and romantic dinner.
12. Many great and loving hugs from family and true friends.
13. Crab dinner ( so much that I developed severe allergy from them for a long time.
14. An absent boyfriend (then) for almost all family held birthday parties.
15. A surprise party from cousins.
16. A present which took a long time to save up for.
17. A bouquet of flowers from my then boyfriend to his ex (said her dog died)... And none for me...
18. A lost charm (brand new)
What can I expect this year then? I know that nick has something for me and jem too. It's very thoughtful of them. Mrs lau, sophia, chia and qili wrote me a card too. Very smart of mrs lau to get qili before she went to greener pastures. Azli sent me an SMS. Honestly I really do not expect much. Maybe it's a harry potter birthday for me...
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
My Heart and I
I.
ENOUGH ! we're tired, my heart and I.
We sit beside the headstone thus,
And wish that name were carved for us.
The moss reprints more tenderly
The hard types of the mason's knife,
As heaven's sweet life renews earth's life
With which we're tired, my heart and I.
II.
You see we're tired, my heart and I.
We dealt with books, we trusted men,
And in our own blood drenched the pen,
As if such colours could not fly.
We walked too straight for fortune's end,
We loved too true to keep a friend ;
At last we're tired, my heart and I.
III.
How tired we feel, my heart and I !
We seem of no use in the world ;
Our fancies hang grey and uncurled
About men's eyes indifferently ;
Our voice which thrilled you so, will let
You sleep; our tears are only wet :
What do we here, my heart and I ?
IV.
So tired, so tired, my heart and I !
It was not thus in that old time
When Ralph sat with me 'neath the lime
To watch the sunset from the sky.
`Dear love, you're looking tired,' he said;
I, smiling at him, shook my head :
'Tis now we're tired, my heart and I.
V.
So tired, so tired, my heart and I !
Though now none takes me on his arm
To fold me close and kiss me warm
Till each quick breath end in a sigh
Of happy languor. Now, alone,
We lean upon this graveyard stone,
Uncheered, unkissed, my heart and I.
VI.
Tired out we are, my heart and I.
Suppose the world brought diadems
To tempt us, crusted with loose gems
Of powers and pleasures ? Let it try.
We scarcely care to look at even
A pretty child, or God's blue heaven,
We feel so tired, my heart and I.
VII.
Yet who complains ? My heart and I ?
In this abundant earth no doubt
Is little room for things worn out :
Disdain them, break them, throw them by
And if before the days grew rough
We once were loved, used, -- well enough,
I think, we've fared, my heart and I.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning
ENOUGH ! we're tired, my heart and I.
We sit beside the headstone thus,
And wish that name were carved for us.
The moss reprints more tenderly
The hard types of the mason's knife,
As heaven's sweet life renews earth's life
With which we're tired, my heart and I.
II.
You see we're tired, my heart and I.
We dealt with books, we trusted men,
And in our own blood drenched the pen,
As if such colours could not fly.
We walked too straight for fortune's end,
We loved too true to keep a friend ;
At last we're tired, my heart and I.
III.
How tired we feel, my heart and I !
We seem of no use in the world ;
Our fancies hang grey and uncurled
About men's eyes indifferently ;
Our voice which thrilled you so, will let
You sleep; our tears are only wet :
What do we here, my heart and I ?
IV.
So tired, so tired, my heart and I !
It was not thus in that old time
When Ralph sat with me 'neath the lime
To watch the sunset from the sky.
`Dear love, you're looking tired,' he said;
I, smiling at him, shook my head :
'Tis now we're tired, my heart and I.
V.
So tired, so tired, my heart and I !
Though now none takes me on his arm
To fold me close and kiss me warm
Till each quick breath end in a sigh
Of happy languor. Now, alone,
We lean upon this graveyard stone,
Uncheered, unkissed, my heart and I.
VI.
Tired out we are, my heart and I.
Suppose the world brought diadems
To tempt us, crusted with loose gems
Of powers and pleasures ? Let it try.
We scarcely care to look at even
A pretty child, or God's blue heaven,
We feel so tired, my heart and I.
VII.
Yet who complains ? My heart and I ?
In this abundant earth no doubt
Is little room for things worn out :
Disdain them, break them, throw them by
And if before the days grew rough
We once were loved, used, -- well enough,
I think, we've fared, my heart and I.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Do men listen when women complain? (another view)
Most of us realise that the communication styles of men and women are slightly different. When men complain to one another they are seeking an answer to a problem. The other male will think up a helpful answer to assist his chum and the conversation will be over.
When women complain however, their prime motivation for doing so may not always be what it looks like to a man who feels that he is on the receiving end of a barrage of negativity from a over wrought banshee. Woman use complaints not only to provide others with information but to help them off load and relax.
The clash between the different styles of communication between men and women comes when men believe that when women complain they have a big problem, and that solving it, which may require drastic change on their part, is what she is looking for.
When a woman isn't just complaining in order to let off steam she usually genuinely has a grievance. The grievance itself, as many men will no doubt testify, is often aimed at the male recipient. Once again a difference in communication can cause angst amongst both sexes.
When a woman complains to a woman she is able to identify the required action, whether that to be to sooth the complainers furrowed brow or to help deal with the body of the complaint and make changes.
What a man hears when a woman complains is a direct threat to his being, like a wound to his pride. He may feel defensive and offended, or simply stressed as the complaint which isnt dealt with turns into a barrage of metaphorical arrows.
However, what a woman thinks is happening is that the man is either avoiding responsibility for his actions as he doesn't care about her, or that he doesn't take her seriously. When a woman feels she is being made light of she is likely to repeat her complaint and add others too it as a result.
So, do men listen when women complain? Yes they listen for at least a few seconds until an automatic shut off defence mechanism kicks into action and they start trying out different escape scenarios in their heads, as the complaints increase due to being left unattended.
The fault doesn't lay with either men or women as such, and stems more from a lack of understanding about how the two sexes communicate and what is really meant when a complaint is made. However, men and women are not a different species and sometimes couples do learn to understand one another more readily.
http://www.helium.com/items/1417369-do-men-listen-to-women
When women complain however, their prime motivation for doing so may not always be what it looks like to a man who feels that he is on the receiving end of a barrage of negativity from a over wrought banshee. Woman use complaints not only to provide others with information but to help them off load and relax.
The clash between the different styles of communication between men and women comes when men believe that when women complain they have a big problem, and that solving it, which may require drastic change on their part, is what she is looking for.
When a woman isn't just complaining in order to let off steam she usually genuinely has a grievance. The grievance itself, as many men will no doubt testify, is often aimed at the male recipient. Once again a difference in communication can cause angst amongst both sexes.
When a woman complains to a woman she is able to identify the required action, whether that to be to sooth the complainers furrowed brow or to help deal with the body of the complaint and make changes.
What a man hears when a woman complains is a direct threat to his being, like a wound to his pride. He may feel defensive and offended, or simply stressed as the complaint which isnt dealt with turns into a barrage of metaphorical arrows.
However, what a woman thinks is happening is that the man is either avoiding responsibility for his actions as he doesn't care about her, or that he doesn't take her seriously. When a woman feels she is being made light of she is likely to repeat her complaint and add others too it as a result.
So, do men listen when women complain? Yes they listen for at least a few seconds until an automatic shut off defence mechanism kicks into action and they start trying out different escape scenarios in their heads, as the complaints increase due to being left unattended.
The fault doesn't lay with either men or women as such, and stems more from a lack of understanding about how the two sexes communicate and what is really meant when a complaint is made. However, men and women are not a different species and sometimes couples do learn to understand one another more readily.
http://www.helium.com/items/1417369-do-men-listen-to-women
Do men listen when women complain?
Do men listen when women complain, or do women complain because men don't listen? Effective communication is a two way street, with both individuals actively participating in the process. One of the biggest issues voiced by women is that men never listen. On the other hand, men feel that women complain too much. Somewhere in between, a happy medium must emerge before a healthy relationship can exist.
No woman wants to be considered a nag, but what's a poor girl to do? Men can easily get lost in their own world, and seem to fade a woman out when she's expressing something that's important to her at the time. Though a guy hears when his woman is talking, he has registered none of what she has said. Women do not like being ignored, so she raises her voice in order to better get his attention. He interprets this as complaining, while she is simply just trying to get her point across.
Men become absorbed in their thoughts or preoccupied by whatever has grabbed their attention for the moment. Unlike women, who seem able to multi-task without losing efficiency, men are more singularly focused, directing their mental energies to one thing at a time. Where women see the entire picture, men see only the details.
In a perfect world, these two contrasts complement each other. But, when boundaries are breached it can cause catastrophe. Men can often become focused on something other than what is important to a woman. When this happens, a man may hear, but not tune into what a woman might be expressing. This creates a boundary that hasn't been negotiated, and a wider gap in relationship communication. These gaps are eliminated by meeting at a threshold, and then coming to an agreement.
Communication boundaries are established in every relationship. No two individuals co-exist in perfect harmony forever. Unfortunately, couples don't always respect each other's threshold. Understanding relationship boundaries is the first step to reaching a communication compromise. Finding ways to communicate across those boundaries leads to greater harmony in relationships, and helps bridge the gap between men listening, and women voicing their concerns without complaining.
For women to stop complaining, guys must be willing to listen. Listening is not always the easiest thing for a man, especially when the topic is of little interest to him. Of course, most men don't think that women listen to them either, which is another problem in itself. But when both individuals take the time to understand and respect the boundaries of the other, both ultimately get what they want out of the relationship.
http://www.helium.com/items/1393404-relationships
No woman wants to be considered a nag, but what's a poor girl to do? Men can easily get lost in their own world, and seem to fade a woman out when she's expressing something that's important to her at the time. Though a guy hears when his woman is talking, he has registered none of what she has said. Women do not like being ignored, so she raises her voice in order to better get his attention. He interprets this as complaining, while she is simply just trying to get her point across.
Men become absorbed in their thoughts or preoccupied by whatever has grabbed their attention for the moment. Unlike women, who seem able to multi-task without losing efficiency, men are more singularly focused, directing their mental energies to one thing at a time. Where women see the entire picture, men see only the details.
In a perfect world, these two contrasts complement each other. But, when boundaries are breached it can cause catastrophe. Men can often become focused on something other than what is important to a woman. When this happens, a man may hear, but not tune into what a woman might be expressing. This creates a boundary that hasn't been negotiated, and a wider gap in relationship communication. These gaps are eliminated by meeting at a threshold, and then coming to an agreement.
Communication boundaries are established in every relationship. No two individuals co-exist in perfect harmony forever. Unfortunately, couples don't always respect each other's threshold. Understanding relationship boundaries is the first step to reaching a communication compromise. Finding ways to communicate across those boundaries leads to greater harmony in relationships, and helps bridge the gap between men listening, and women voicing their concerns without complaining.
For women to stop complaining, guys must be willing to listen. Listening is not always the easiest thing for a man, especially when the topic is of little interest to him. Of course, most men don't think that women listen to them either, which is another problem in itself. But when both individuals take the time to understand and respect the boundaries of the other, both ultimately get what they want out of the relationship.
http://www.helium.com/items/1393404-relationships
Sunday, 12 April 2009
Trust vs jealousy
Trust?
I've always told qili that trust is the least of my concern. Cheat on me and I'll gladly let my partner go. Mrs lau told me that if I love a person, I should try my best to make things work. To be concerned is one of the ways. My old 'cannot be bothered' attitude towards relationships should be thrown out of the window. 'cannot be bothered' is good. Saves me from being 'paranoid' and suspicious. Also, it's makes me a more accomodating person.
I remember that there was once when a guy who liked me took me out for dinner, he was very unhappy. I quarreled with him, accusing him of not trusting me. He very calmly replied that trust was never an issue. A person has the right to get jealous. He told me that I should be worried the day he stops getting jealous. Then he stopped.
Was that the reason why n broke up with me? He asked me if there was a difference between us being friends and us being a couple. I do not know. Maybe he felt that I was too bothered about all stuff but him.
Anyway, it's over. Bothered or not, it does not make a difference. Cannot be bothered is good. Saves me a lot of pain. Or just install a button in me. Push the button when you want me to be bothered. Whatever. Just be cool and accept whatever that comes my way.
I've always told qili that trust is the least of my concern. Cheat on me and I'll gladly let my partner go. Mrs lau told me that if I love a person, I should try my best to make things work. To be concerned is one of the ways. My old 'cannot be bothered' attitude towards relationships should be thrown out of the window. 'cannot be bothered' is good. Saves me from being 'paranoid' and suspicious. Also, it's makes me a more accomodating person.
I remember that there was once when a guy who liked me took me out for dinner, he was very unhappy. I quarreled with him, accusing him of not trusting me. He very calmly replied that trust was never an issue. A person has the right to get jealous. He told me that I should be worried the day he stops getting jealous. Then he stopped.
Was that the reason why n broke up with me? He asked me if there was a difference between us being friends and us being a couple. I do not know. Maybe he felt that I was too bothered about all stuff but him.
Anyway, it's over. Bothered or not, it does not make a difference. Cannot be bothered is good. Saves me a lot of pain. Or just install a button in me. Push the button when you want me to be bothered. Whatever. Just be cool and accept whatever that comes my way.
Friday, 10 April 2009
Lord have mercy
I was talking to Jia that day about A's wife who passed away in labour due to some very rare complication. A's wife had been his goddess. I mean that literally. He worshipped the ground that she walked on and he had loved telling anyone who would listen to him about how they met and everything. In short, he was a loving husband and a great father (Not a very good boss cos a bit loh soh). All of us envied their loving relationship.
Jia told me that there has been spculations by the very staunch Christians that A's wife was taken away from him becos she was a threat to the affection that A had for the Lord (They are devoted Christians). They said that this is the Lord's test that A has to go through. It was like when Abraham had to sacrifice his son.
I do not want to think of the Lord this way (I think that's quite myopic). I believe that the Lord will not be so cruel to take away A's wife because he feels threatened. Today is Good Friday. The Lord sent his son to be sacrificed for our sins. I believe that the Lord has greater plans for A and for us.
Jia told me that there has been spculations by the very staunch Christians that A's wife was taken away from him becos she was a threat to the affection that A had for the Lord (They are devoted Christians). They said that this is the Lord's test that A has to go through. It was like when Abraham had to sacrifice his son.
I do not want to think of the Lord this way (I think that's quite myopic). I believe that the Lord will not be so cruel to take away A's wife because he feels threatened. Today is Good Friday. The Lord sent his son to be sacrificed for our sins. I believe that the Lord has greater plans for A and for us.
Bruises
Yesterday, I tripped over a the leg of a chair when a child stood up. It was an accident. No, I did not smack the child.
This was how it looked like last night.
These were taken just now.
Anyway, I have not got such a bad bruise since I dunno when. I got it when I was playing catching then. I was trying to look for the picture of that bruise when I realised I was actually digging into things that I should no longer dig into.
I saw quite a few photos. I created a folder called "to be put away forever". Those days were not worth remembering in terms of hair, weight and complexion. Anyway the photo of that bruise is gone. I could not find it. It had healed.
This was how it looked like last night.
These were taken just now.
Anyway, I have not got such a bad bruise since I dunno when. I got it when I was playing catching then. I was trying to look for the picture of that bruise when I realised I was actually digging into things that I should no longer dig into.
I saw quite a few photos. I created a folder called "to be put away forever". Those days were not worth remembering in terms of hair, weight and complexion. Anyway the photo of that bruise is gone. I could not find it. It had healed.
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
Piggies
These piggies once meant a lot to me. It's been more than a year and it's time to spring clean my table and thoughts as well. They just look good now. I will not let them trap me anymore. Like Qili said, it's time to make way for better things.Better things have been coming and will continue to come. *wink*
I will take robopig to school soon :)
Cuilian's Wedding
Went to help out at Cuilian's wedding on 9th March. We were neighbors and classmates for 10 years! Sumathi and Liwen were there as well.
We had our fair share of quarrels and even cold wars but what the heck, we will always be there for each other.
Friday, 6 March 2009
I WON
What a bad deal.
If I win, I have to buy the swarovski cross. If I lose, I have to buy the Tiffany's crucifix. Wait for Christmas. Swarovski will have nicer crosses.
Tuesday, 3 March 2009
didn't think that I would have to do this
So obviously there's more than a bunch of people at work thinking that I have no common courtesy. Someone outside thinks this way too, just because I have no right to flare up because customer service is not showing signs of good service.
Honestly you do not have to put up with me. I do not wish to force my impolite company upon you. With that said, I will not spoil any of your days, weeks, years or whatsoever anymore.
Honestly you do not have to put up with me. I do not wish to force my impolite company upon you. With that said, I will not spoil any of your days, weeks, years or whatsoever anymore.
Monday, 2 March 2009
Nice Dinner
The dinner was good. The pasta tasted like Mee Pok. GST and Tax were all included. What you see on the menu is what you pay.
Drew
This is the Drew on N's pants...
Pebble used to sit on my skirts too. Strange habits cats have.
Weird looking birds
I saw these birds at a coffee shop in Henderson after class last Fri. They look like chickens/ quails or I dunno also. Anyway, they look edible and they behave like cats. Some were actually lying sideway on the floor. Strange...
Dinner with Li Jing, Ying Chia and Qili
I had dinner with the 3 princesses and their mummies last Tuesday. Li Jing is going to have a boy soon! So nice. Such a complete family. Francess is no longer confused about her gender but is starting to beat up all the little boys that she sees because she's jealous of them. Sigh. That's the way children are. They cannot understand why they have to share. This is where parents should explain to them. Well, responsible parenst will. Irresponsible ones you know... Nevermind.
An An looks so much like a boy!
Le Le
FrancessDrew and Spike
Drew in the towel cabinet. (She's voted by majority to be the smart one)
Spike's weird sleeping position. I so envy him...Valentine's Day at Linda's Place
From one of the kids
Good stuff and btw, I am not as alchoholic as many think.
Thursday, 26 February 2009
Wednesday, 25 February 2009
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Lousy Camera vs Lousy Photographer
Ok, I'm no excellent photographer. Jan always comments on my 'excellent' photography skills but I do love my camera. Admittedly, I did want to change it at a point but now it's not the case anymore. N gave me to me a while back and I am a person who cherishes my stuff, no matter who it's from. Ok, did feel like giving the cross away. Maybe later when I find someone who wants it... I should settle my Christmas tree first. Honestly, It does not matter to me anymore. I might even dig that bracelet out. After all, I do love it and he saved very hard to get it for me.
Anyway, I saw this blog where the photographer kept saying that the camera's lousy. Why doesn't she blame herself for a change?
Anyway, I saw this blog where the photographer kept saying that the camera's lousy. Why doesn't she blame herself for a change?
Someone else's blog
This girl does not seem to be able to write English at all... (I'm prejudiced. She wrote it in Japanese)...
kiat'[ni] being attached; The E-mail of s. How doing, kiat however him won'[ni] being attached, has known everything; t helps the fact that it changes because he being better. For the what kind of good friend whether please be, it is that? Me the friend always tries the fact that the fact that it is the person where I am better is helped. There is no point of the thing which joins to There' s all that childishness. As for those which are said him concerning me with what, the worry of I don' t. That he was foreseen, saying just concerning him for fact splendid what is a girl all those he who the possession is not done enters date, (excluding 1st ones). I foresaw him. As for me one where he enters date after me, so of she doesn'[koto] who and obtains a state where it is bad to that is thought; You say concerning him in t it is good, it is. He' insecurity and s of self-love sufficiently excessively. In regard to me, me to feel, perhaps, him those which that of the thing and well were thought, there'知[tsute] it is; The past when s I have done and apply and/or me already change what which it is not possible. Changing those where I am good into me, ask, if it should, I probably will not enter into the relationship of this. I was happy thing before. But i can' future, I being allowed to share, and as for the modification of t to everything thing this which the past therefore is seen it is: The part because of the fact which has not been taken, thing I don'意味 is done in all these things me concerning him; There is that heavy load of my rear in t. So the worry of t concerning friend… don' me who become love. My center was repaired. Reaching to my present time and making my he future there is no at all. And because of that I appreciate very in God for the thing which is appliance by the fact that I am produced from this predicament, is. It must be hurt in my parent as this result, pity. Him concerning me, would like to continue to be dissatisfaction wordily wordily when you think go first that it means the same thing. I can' some people say, t control. But the permission and the heaven blessing which are made because of my part, form of reconciliation is outside problem. I already am not the slave into my past. Because and I that was truth, I his and my truth am applicable to the fact that you said. As for me there is peace. podcast ([jiemusudobuson]) from, worship of delegation travelling to worship in me, the topic of the permission preaches with home, or opened. And it was, I understood those which you think that God would like to call to me finally. I permitted him, that heavy load was raised. As for this time as for me you pray to substituting because of that, as for that him entirely desired happiness finding. But as I said, I him pity the girl it is.
Anyway, quite a dumb thing to write... Move on...
kiat'[ni] being attached; The E-mail of s. How doing, kiat however him won'[ni] being attached, has known everything; t helps the fact that it changes because he being better. For the what kind of good friend whether please be, it is that? Me the friend always tries the fact that the fact that it is the person where I am better is helped. There is no point of the thing which joins to There' s all that childishness. As for those which are said him concerning me with what, the worry of I don' t. That he was foreseen, saying just concerning him for fact splendid what is a girl all those he who the possession is not done enters date, (excluding 1st ones). I foresaw him. As for me one where he enters date after me, so of she doesn'[koto] who and obtains a state where it is bad to that is thought; You say concerning him in t it is good, it is. He' insecurity and s of self-love sufficiently excessively. In regard to me, me to feel, perhaps, him those which that of the thing and well were thought, there'知[tsute] it is; The past when s I have done and apply and/or me already change what which it is not possible. Changing those where I am good into me, ask, if it should, I probably will not enter into the relationship of this. I was happy thing before. But i can' future, I being allowed to share, and as for the modification of t to everything thing this which the past therefore is seen it is: The part because of the fact which has not been taken, thing I don'意味 is done in all these things me concerning him; There is that heavy load of my rear in t. So the worry of t concerning friend… don' me who become love. My center was repaired. Reaching to my present time and making my he future there is no at all. And because of that I appreciate very in God for the thing which is appliance by the fact that I am produced from this predicament, is. It must be hurt in my parent as this result, pity. Him concerning me, would like to continue to be dissatisfaction wordily wordily when you think go first that it means the same thing. I can' some people say, t control. But the permission and the heaven blessing which are made because of my part, form of reconciliation is outside problem. I already am not the slave into my past. Because and I that was truth, I his and my truth am applicable to the fact that you said. As for me there is peace. podcast ([jiemusudobuson]) from, worship of delegation travelling to worship in me, the topic of the permission preaches with home, or opened. And it was, I understood those which you think that God would like to call to me finally. I permitted him, that heavy load was raised. As for this time as for me you pray to substituting because of that, as for that him entirely desired happiness finding. But as I said, I him pity the girl it is.
Anyway, quite a dumb thing to write... Move on...
Monday, 23 February 2009
Boozer
Boozer may refer to:
A person who boozes (drinks alcohol), especially one who drinks to excess
British slang for pub
A device used in Second World War British bomber aircraft to alert the crew that they were being tracked by enemy radar
Boozer. (2009, January 11). In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. Retrieved 11:00, February 23, 2009, from http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Boozer&oldid=263402015
I WON THE GAME... LEGALLY
A person who boozes (drinks alcohol), especially one who drinks to excess
British slang for pub
A device used in Second World War British bomber aircraft to alert the crew that they were being tracked by enemy radar
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I WON THE GAME... LEGALLY
Extention
My tutor extended the deadline for our assignment submission so my weekend was not as stressful as it should be. She's actually quite ok, unlike my last blog entry.
Weekend was nice. We met up with William, Sharon, Shania and Shanice for dinner. Well, our dinner technically. Nick and Collin said that they should attack the food systematically. They really liked KPT very much.
According to Sharon, Nick can't cook but of course he claimed that he can cook pasta, Prego style. Whatever that means. So much for wanting to have a well stocked larder.
On Saturday, we had breakfast at starbucks and then collected stuff and went to see some r/c cars. R/c cars are "very fun", according to a reliable source, "men like things that go fast. The faster the better, face not so important." Well, with that, of course the car was bought, despite the fact that it rained.
Dinner was nice. Dinner was at "La Villa". We had to do a research on what to wear and we all went smart casual. The prices were reasonable and the wine was... well... a bit dry. Overall, it was very enjoyable cause the weather was great, atmosphere was nice and the comnpany was excellent.
However, the assignment was not forgotten. Before I actually hit the sack, I finished a bit of it. I'm quite proud of that actually. Since I was at the computer, I had to go to my favourite website. T & Co. I told the guys that they get quite a number of calls from me. They shook their heads. It's nice to know that I do not have to follow a budget but of course I will not take advantage of that ;)
On Sunday, we played Scrabble. The stake was that if he wins, he buys lunch and if he loses, he buys lunch as well. So anyway, I won. More pride in eating the lunch. We went for a play entitled "What the Butler Saw". It was a bit dry in the middle but became very funny when the policeman appeared. Overall, I think I will give it 4 out of 5 stars. Of course the VIP had to go to Starbucks, even on a Sunday.
Overall, this weekend has been really sinful. Dinner was laksa steamboat. Laksa gravy... COCONUT MILK and loads of fats... I have to really watch my weight before I turn into a "tugboat" or whatever they call that.
Anyone heard of the word "mapyl". I have tried googling but no results found. Someone defnitely cheated during Scrabble.
Weekend was nice. We met up with William, Sharon, Shania and Shanice for dinner. Well, our dinner technically. Nick and Collin said that they should attack the food systematically. They really liked KPT very much.
According to Sharon, Nick can't cook but of course he claimed that he can cook pasta, Prego style. Whatever that means. So much for wanting to have a well stocked larder.
On Saturday, we had breakfast at starbucks and then collected stuff and went to see some r/c cars. R/c cars are "very fun", according to a reliable source, "men like things that go fast. The faster the better, face not so important." Well, with that, of course the car was bought, despite the fact that it rained.
Dinner was nice. Dinner was at "La Villa". We had to do a research on what to wear and we all went smart casual. The prices were reasonable and the wine was... well... a bit dry. Overall, it was very enjoyable cause the weather was great, atmosphere was nice and the comnpany was excellent.
However, the assignment was not forgotten. Before I actually hit the sack, I finished a bit of it. I'm quite proud of that actually. Since I was at the computer, I had to go to my favourite website. T & Co. I told the guys that they get quite a number of calls from me. They shook their heads. It's nice to know that I do not have to follow a budget but of course I will not take advantage of that ;)
On Sunday, we played Scrabble. The stake was that if he wins, he buys lunch and if he loses, he buys lunch as well. So anyway, I won. More pride in eating the lunch. We went for a play entitled "What the Butler Saw". It was a bit dry in the middle but became very funny when the policeman appeared. Overall, I think I will give it 4 out of 5 stars. Of course the VIP had to go to Starbucks, even on a Sunday.
Overall, this weekend has been really sinful. Dinner was laksa steamboat. Laksa gravy... COCONUT MILK and loads of fats... I have to really watch my weight before I turn into a "tugboat" or whatever they call that.
Anyone heard of the word "mapyl". I have tried googling but no results found. Someone defnitely cheated during Scrabble.
Thursday, 19 February 2009
Bad Temper
Today, I went to my work station at about 4 and started banging on the table with a pair of scissors after complaining to Qili... She saw me and started laughing. Told me to bang on anything as long as it made me feel better.
Weight Gain
Weight gain... What goes to your lips goes to your hips. Well, not only my hips I guess...
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
What the f?
Ok, obviously all of you know what the 'F' stands for. It is hell at work now. What do they mean by if they already hired extra hands in the morning, they won't do it in the afternoon? I don't understand! Then they load us with more work?
Almost all of us are overworked. We go to work three days a week before my official working hours and because of that being 'non official', when I wanted to go home in the noon, it was considered medical leave. Hell! I even had to plan for people to cover me. I mean, what's going on? Can't I even go in peace. I did my time in the morning! Anyway, I walked off.
I am just so sick and tired of them dumping everything on our shoulders. As it is, we are already covering more time than the rest, why can't we take a break?
No wonder I am still not well. I think it's also because of the bloody unnecessary work that I have been doing. Tomorrow is a 10.30am day. Lessons will end at 10pm for me. Damn...
Next on my list of complaints is UNISIM. Another stupid place. They haven't even had the lecture for the particular assignment due next wekk and they want us to complete the assignment. Really waste my time. Lousy tutor also. Think people so bloody free.
Almost all of us are overworked. We go to work three days a week before my official working hours and because of that being 'non official', when I wanted to go home in the noon, it was considered medical leave. Hell! I even had to plan for people to cover me. I mean, what's going on? Can't I even go in peace. I did my time in the morning! Anyway, I walked off.
I am just so sick and tired of them dumping everything on our shoulders. As it is, we are already covering more time than the rest, why can't we take a break?
No wonder I am still not well. I think it's also because of the bloody unnecessary work that I have been doing. Tomorrow is a 10.30am day. Lessons will end at 10pm for me. Damn...
Next on my list of complaints is UNISIM. Another stupid place. They haven't even had the lecture for the particular assignment due next wekk and they want us to complete the assignment. Really waste my time. Lousy tutor also. Think people so bloody free.
Saturday, 14 February 2009
I Don't Wanna Talk About It
From one of my favorite singers of all time. Too bad the acoustics at the Indoors Stadium is really bad.
Rereading my blog
Trying to organise my thoughts and correct any errors I spot along the way. I have realised that the England can be very terok at times, or most of the time.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
Selling my flowers
My cheapo brother offered $6 for the flowers... Dream on. So sorry, Fiona, my brother's that 'giam siap'.
Friday, 13 February 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
revoking my offer
sorry if anyone is considering me for babysitting. Jan, linda and myself may be having steamboat...
babysitting
ok, I am free to babysit if u need me this valentine's day provided my flu is not bothering me. LOL. Anyone wants my service?
Fighting the flu bug
Sigh, it's the third dose of antibiotics for the year. I started the year with a bad flu and it is still in my system.
This is also my 3rd day of MC for the year. Damn, like i always tell Sophia, I do not even have the time to die. Imagine having to arrange for stand in myself when I can't even show up for work.
Hanwei said that miss me at the lorong. Qili is quite worried and asked me to call if there's anything she can do. Jan as well. They are just so sweet to me.
I cannot even hang out with Julie. They are having such an exciting day today. Ann's going to pick her up and they are going to hang at Mummy Janet's, then at Ron's. I'm missing out all the action because I cannot afford to spread the virus to that many children. I will never forgive myself. Ju even did a check online to see if tonsil inflammation is infectious and the answer is "YES".
I do not think it is the kissing bug. I have not infected anyone yet. Wink ;)
This is also my 3rd day of MC for the year. Damn, like i always tell Sophia, I do not even have the time to die. Imagine having to arrange for stand in myself when I can't even show up for work.
Hanwei said that miss me at the lorong. Qili is quite worried and asked me to call if there's anything she can do. Jan as well. They are just so sweet to me.
I cannot even hang out with Julie. They are having such an exciting day today. Ann's going to pick her up and they are going to hang at Mummy Janet's, then at Ron's. I'm missing out all the action because I cannot afford to spread the virus to that many children. I will never forgive myself. Ju even did a check online to see if tonsil inflammation is infectious and the answer is "YES".
I do not think it is the kissing bug. I have not infected anyone yet. Wink ;)
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
Monday, 2 February 2009
Friday, 30 January 2009
Brave Pebble
Every CNY, Pebble will hide under the table because of her fear for the drumbeats from the lion dance troupes. This year, she sat outside to enjoy the breeze. She is finally warming up to her distant cousins, the lions.
My Best Friend's Birthday
It is tomorrow. Maybe he'll drop by. He always put aeroplane so I wonder...
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
my crying days
my uncle came overand talked so much about what happened in the past few years. He was the few ones who stood by me those years. He hopes that my crying days are over. Me too.
No Expectations
Like I told Roy, there should be no expectations. I got 2 pleasant surprises so far.
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
Sunday, 11 January 2009
Finally
Ok, Julie is finally out. We went to Taka sale in the morning and she felt really guilty about leaving Tristan. Our total damage I guess is about $1000. I bought:
1. A wok
2. A Nike Top
3. A Guess Top
4. A pair of Nine West shoes
5. A pair of Nike boys shorts
I know you will be wondering why I bought the boys shorts. The ladies' ones are so bloody "long". No difference from my skirts. I saw this pair of Pink Nike tennis shoes. Very tempting. Tennis anyone? I can't play but I can pose...
1. A wok
2. A Nike Top
3. A Guess Top
4. A pair of Nine West shoes
5. A pair of Nike boys shorts
I know you will be wondering why I bought the boys shorts. The ladies' ones are so bloody "long". No difference from my skirts. I saw this pair of Pink Nike tennis shoes. Very tempting. Tennis anyone? I can't play but I can pose...
Saturday, 10 January 2009
Friday, 9 January 2009
I Do Know That Much
So much for me knowing stuff that actually made no one happy until so recently. Hahahaha. We know almost as much useless stuff as each other.
Thursday, 8 January 2009
my heart
it was a lock. It could have been unlocked. But now it's lost. How do you unlock a lock that's lost? Even I cannot do so...
under the influence of?
it's either the margarita or the emotional stress. Nope. I do not think it's the margarita. I'm too pro for that. The tequila is almost gone.
the start and the end
I just realized that our numbers start at different points. So we shall meet at the end then...
issues and tissue
I don't think I need the tissue thanks. In the box there's basically nothing to cry about. It's just mostly thoughts and assumptions. Tissue papers are a luxury.
my twin frame
if you really are my twin frame, why are you so near yet so far? Or are the both of them wrong? Am I still a part of your life? Do we separate in the beginning to meet at the end or have we met at the beginning only to separate at the end? 9-6-1 and 4-1-9
thanks for the love
I'm really thankful that I have a great family and good friends. I know that they love me and I should not trap myself just because of the past but we'll talk about this later.
a knight in shining armour
how ironic can things be? These quotes come from my favourite book "a knight in shining armour":
"Time knows no meaning. Love will endure"
"My soul will find yours"
The knight in this book is Nicholas. For those of you who know me well for the past years, I'm pretty sure you need no introduction to him...
"Time knows no meaning. Love will endure"
"My soul will find yours"
The knight in this book is Nicholas. For those of you who know me well for the past years, I'm pretty sure you need no introduction to him...
i love
I was talking to Qili today and she said that she has already introduced herself as Mrs Tan. I was full of rubbish and told her that perhaps I shall get married too to be known as something else. She turned and told me that she has given up on me. The exact words were " please lor, with your expectations? Give up on you lay. And yes, with my kind of temper I give up on you liao."
Qili is known to be an extremely patient and gentle person...
Jan really knows me well as well. I'm just starting on the book "i Love" and I found this:
"The lord has prepared only one special person for each of us. If we mistakenly choose just anyone to marry, it will mark the rest of our lives. But if we wait and allow God to guide us, our marriage will be the greatest blessing that we will enjoy for the rest of our lives."
This really reminds me of my conversation with e yesterday. We have not met for years and we discussed about our views on relationship and each found out weird stuff on each other. Anyway, E commented that he really spoiled the market for anyone that came along later. Actually I do not think this is true. I shall continue reading i Love to find out.
Qili is known to be an extremely patient and gentle person...
Jan really knows me well as well. I'm just starting on the book "i Love" and I found this:
"The lord has prepared only one special person for each of us. If we mistakenly choose just anyone to marry, it will mark the rest of our lives. But if we wait and allow God to guide us, our marriage will be the greatest blessing that we will enjoy for the rest of our lives."
This really reminds me of my conversation with e yesterday. We have not met for years and we discussed about our views on relationship and each found out weird stuff on each other. Anyway, E commented that he really spoiled the market for anyone that came along later. Actually I do not think this is true. I shall continue reading i Love to find out.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
Monday, 5 January 2009
Sunday, 4 January 2009
Whatif
I am a deep thinker, although I know sometimes I do appear bimbotic.
This poem by Shel Silverstein describes me perfectly, and also my friend who spent all night drinking coffee and thinking about things that should not bother us too much, if only we dare to do something about it. I know I am a wimp, but my friend's not. My friend's just despondent. My friend should not let whatifs manifest.
I know I have loads of whatifs but I know that even if I should be wimpy now, I will get out of my box one day or soon. SO FRIEND, GET OUT AND START THINKING STRAIGHT!
This poem by Shel Silverstein describes me perfectly, and also my friend who spent all night drinking coffee and thinking about things that should not bother us too much, if only we dare to do something about it. I know I am a wimp, but my friend's not. My friend's just despondent. My friend should not let whatifs manifest.
I know I have loads of whatifs but I know that even if I should be wimpy now, I will get out of my box one day or soon. SO FRIEND, GET OUT AND START THINKING STRAIGHT!
Whatif
Last night, while I lay thinking here,
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:
Whatif I'm dumb in school?
Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
Whatif I get beat up?
Whatif there's poison in my cup?
Whatif I start to cry?
Whatif I get sick and die?
Whatif I flunk that test?
Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
Whatif nobody likes me?
Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
Whatif I don't grow talle?
Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
Whatif the fish won't bite?
Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
Whatif they start a war?
Whatif my parents get divorced?
Whatif the bus is late?
Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
Whatif I tear my pants?
Whatif I never learn to dance?
Everything seems well, and then
the nighttime Whatifs strike again!
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:
Whatif I'm dumb in school?
Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
Whatif I get beat up?
Whatif there's poison in my cup?
Whatif I start to cry?
Whatif I get sick and die?
Whatif I flunk that test?
Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
Whatif nobody likes me?
Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
Whatif I don't grow talle?
Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
Whatif the fish won't bite?
Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
Whatif they start a war?
Whatif my parents get divorced?
Whatif the bus is late?
Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
Whatif I tear my pants?
Whatif I never learn to dance?
Everything seems well, and then
the nighttime Whatifs strike again!
I Love My Mulberry Cat
For short, I'll just name it Mulberry. I think Pebble wouldn't mind it that much...Thanks for putting so much though into my gift. Appreciate it.
Good Stuff
Brings back so many memories...
http://www.usdudes.com/archives/2007/05/20/why-u-so-like-dat-a-tribute/
http://www.usdudes.com/archives/2007/05/20/why-u-so-like-dat-a-tribute/
The Complexity of My Mind
Contrary to popular belief, I am actually not the "Shi San Dian" that many think I am. I do have quite a number of philosophies in life. I just thought of this argument. (N's so gonna kill me)
Premise 1: Girls are emotional
Premise 2: N's emotional
Conclusion: Therefore, N's a girl :p
Ok, now I'm just waiting for hate calls and howlers. LOL
Premise 1: Girls are emotional
Premise 2: N's emotional
Conclusion: Therefore, N's a girl :p
Ok, now I'm just waiting for hate calls and howlers. LOL
Decided
Saw something from T & Co website that would be very meaningful. Called them and it's available here. Shall buy it then. It's just the thing I would love to give away. I am sure it would be appropriate. Sigh.
That Time of the Year Again
It is coming to that time of the year again. I haven't bought a gift. Not very sure if I should even call...
If I don't, I will feel guilty.
If I do, I really am not sure what's the point of it all
SUCKER FOR PUNISHMENT
If I don't, I will feel guilty.
If I do, I really am not sure what's the point of it all
SUCKER FOR PUNISHMENT
The Curse of the Box
I just realised that after divulging what's in my box, it really seems like a one way track. Is there really no way to turn around and take my time to smell the flowers? Someone told me that I may miss many cars passing by but do I really want to hitch a ride? If the rides are for me they will come back for me again.
Are my prayers really going to realise in 3 years time or am I just giving myself an ultimatum again? Whatever it is, I have thought and dreamt about it. I know that now I may not have the will, but I will wake up to reality again. Yes, I am strong enough for that, albeit a bit old by then.
Are my prayers really going to realise in 3 years time or am I just giving myself an ultimatum again? Whatever it is, I have thought and dreamt about it. I know that now I may not have the will, but I will wake up to reality again. Yes, I am strong enough for that, albeit a bit old by then.
Thursday, 1 January 2009
Looking Back
2008 had been, well, how do I put it? I have grown stronger this year in terms of work definitely (I do not have anyone to cry to when I go home even when I am bullied to the extreme) but my romantic box is still as tightly sealed. Jan and I were talking about it just now, we simply do not want to be hurt anytime sooner.
Admittedly, Cupid might have shot some arrows my way but it sort of just grazed my skin. None of them really sustained my interest. Many of them could not match my level of wits or are just too shy. I'm not trying to say I am very intelligent but as one of my friends put it, I am quite a "fountain of useless information".
How do you go about explaining 8 years of failed relationship to another person? Many of you have stood by me all these years and saw how it died a natural death. Do not get me wrong. I am not bitter about it. In fact, I have learnt so much about myself and what others expect of me. I have grown to be a "fountain of useless information" because of him, if it were not for him, I may still be very ignorant. Yes, I am only as smart as my boyfriends.
Admittedly, Cupid might have shot some arrows my way but it sort of just grazed my skin. None of them really sustained my interest. Many of them could not match my level of wits or are just too shy. I'm not trying to say I am very intelligent but as one of my friends put it, I am quite a "fountain of useless information".
How do you go about explaining 8 years of failed relationship to another person? Many of you have stood by me all these years and saw how it died a natural death. Do not get me wrong. I am not bitter about it. In fact, I have learnt so much about myself and what others expect of me. I have grown to be a "fountain of useless information" because of him, if it were not for him, I may still be very ignorant. Yes, I am only as smart as my boyfriends.
Jan and I and Valentine's Day
Tomorrow is Jan's birthday so we were hanging out at Bliss just now. Next to come is Valentine's Day. She has me and I have her. LOL. Jalan Kayu's Mad Jack, here we come.
A Man's Requirements
I
Love me Sweet, with all thou art,
Feeling, thinking, seeing;
Love me in the lightest part,
Love me in full being.
II
Love me with thine open youth
In its frank surrender;
With the vowing of thy mouth,
With its silence tender.
III
Love me with thine azure eyes,
Made for earnest grantings;
Taking colour from the skies,
Can Heaven's truth be wanting?
IV
Love me with their lids, that fall
Snow-like at first meeting;
Love me with thine heart, that all
Neighbours then see beating.
V
Love me with thine hand stretched out
Freely -- open-minded:
Love me with thy loitering foot, --
Hearing one behind it.
VI
Love me with thy voice, that turns
Sudden faint above me;
Love me with thy blush that burns
When I murmur 'Love me!'
VII
Love me with thy thinking soul,
Break it to love-sighing;
Love me with thy thoughts that roll
On through living -- dying.
VIII
Love me in thy gorgeous airs,
When the world has crowned thee;
Love me, kneeling at thy prayers,
With the angels round thee.
IX
Love me pure, as muses do,
Up the woodlands shady:
Love me gaily, fast and true,
As a winsome lady.
X
Through all hopes that keep us brave,
Farther off or nigher,
Love me for the house and grave,
And for something higher.
XI
Thus, if thou wilt prove me, Dear,
Woman's love no fable,
I will love thee -- half a year --
As a man is able.
---Elizabeth Barrett Browning---
Love me Sweet, with all thou art,
Feeling, thinking, seeing;
Love me in the lightest part,
Love me in full being.
II
Love me with thine open youth
In its frank surrender;
With the vowing of thy mouth,
With its silence tender.
III
Love me with thine azure eyes,
Made for earnest grantings;
Taking colour from the skies,
Can Heaven's truth be wanting?
IV
Love me with their lids, that fall
Snow-like at first meeting;
Love me with thine heart, that all
Neighbours then see beating.
V
Love me with thine hand stretched out
Freely -- open-minded:
Love me with thy loitering foot, --
Hearing one behind it.
VI
Love me with thy voice, that turns
Sudden faint above me;
Love me with thy blush that burns
When I murmur 'Love me!'
VII
Love me with thy thinking soul,
Break it to love-sighing;
Love me with thy thoughts that roll
On through living -- dying.
VIII
Love me in thy gorgeous airs,
When the world has crowned thee;
Love me, kneeling at thy prayers,
With the angels round thee.
IX
Love me pure, as muses do,
Up the woodlands shady:
Love me gaily, fast and true,
As a winsome lady.
X
Through all hopes that keep us brave,
Farther off or nigher,
Love me for the house and grave,
And for something higher.
XI
Thus, if thou wilt prove me, Dear,
Woman's love no fable,
I will love thee -- half a year --
As a man is able.
---Elizabeth Barrett Browning---
Mr Mechanic
Mr Accountant, that's so conceited :P
Just because its car servicing its Mr Mechanic. This is called 'labeling'. LOL
Just because its car servicing its Mr Mechanic. This is called 'labeling'. LOL
Shorts
I need shorts!!! This was what my AM recorded during the meeting. Staff can wear shorts (not too short??????) for physical activities.
New Year Hopes
To a certain extent, I really do not dare to hope. I am worried that by giving myself ultimatums, I will dash all my hopes...
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