Brave Pebble

Every CNY, Pebble will hide under the table because of her fear for the drumbeats from the lion dance troupes. This year, she sat outside to enjoy the breeze. She is finally warming up to her distant cousins, the lions.

My Best Friend's Birthday

It is tomorrow. Maybe he'll drop by. He always put aeroplane so I wonder...

CNY Celebration

So far, CNY has been very quiet.

My Flowers

From a very special person who wants me to be happy everyday.

my crying days

my uncle came overand talked so much about what happened in the past few years. He was the few ones who stood by me those years. He hopes that my crying days are over. Me too.

No Expectations

Like I told Roy, there should be no expectations. I got 2 pleasant surprises so far.

Smiling to myself

Yes, I think I am going mad.

Finally

Ok, Julie is finally out. We went to Taka sale in the morning and she felt really guilty about leaving Tristan. Our total damage I guess is about $1000. I bought:

1. A wok
2. A Nike Top
3. A Guess Top
4. A pair of Nine West shoes
5. A pair of Nike boys shorts

I know you will be wondering why I bought the boys shorts. The ladies' ones are so bloody "long". No difference from my skirts. I saw this pair of Pink Nike tennis shoes. Very tempting. Tennis anyone? I can't play but I can pose...

Apple Core Who's Your Friend?

Ok, I used to watch this every time I turn on the PC. It's hilarious.

Mahna Mahna again

Oh I so remember this

I Do Know That Much

So much for me knowing stuff that actually made no one happy until so recently. Hahahaha. We know almost as much useless stuff as each other.

The Past

He used to sing this to me...

The Happy Wanderer

Used to watch loads of these over the Saturdays...

It's You Tube Day for me

Yup... This is what I've been doing all day.

One of My Fav from Count Duckula

Mahna Mahna

I'm really surprised that you know this too...

Romantic Alphabet Song

Just as loony as I am

my heart

it was a lock. It could have been unlocked. But now it's lost. How do you unlock a lock that's lost? Even I cannot do so...

dreaming of reality

I dreamt that I was in my box last night. Literally.

under the influence of?

it's either the margarita or the emotional stress. Nope. I do not think it's the margarita. I'm too pro for that. The tequila is almost gone.

the start and the end

I just realized that our numbers start at different points. So we shall meet at the end then...

issues and tissue

I don't think I need the tissue thanks. In the box there's basically nothing to cry about. It's just mostly thoughts and assumptions. Tissue papers are a luxury.

my twin frame

if you really are my twin frame, why are you so near yet so far? Or are the both of them wrong? Am I still a part of your life? Do we separate in the beginning to meet at the end or have we met at the beginning only to separate at the end? 9-6-1 and 4-1-9

thanks for the love

I'm really thankful that I have a great family and good friends. I know that they love me and I should not trap myself just because of the past but we'll talk about this later.

a knight in shining armour

how ironic can things be? These quotes come from my favourite book "a knight in shining armour":

"Time knows no meaning. Love will endure"
"My soul will find yours"

The knight in this book is Nicholas. For those of you who know me well for the past years, I'm pretty sure you need no introduction to him...

i love

I was talking to Qili today and she said that she has already introduced herself as Mrs Tan. I was full of rubbish and told her that perhaps I shall get married too to be known as something else. She turned and told me that she has given up on me. The exact words were " please lor, with your expectations? Give up on you lay. And yes, with my kind of temper I give up on you liao."

Qili is known to be an extremely patient and gentle person...

Jan really knows me well as well. I'm just starting on the book "i Love" and I found this:

"The lord has prepared only one special person for each of us. If we mistakenly choose just anyone to marry, it will mark the rest of our lives. But if we wait and allow God to guide us, our marriage will be the greatest blessing that we will enjoy for the rest of our lives."

This really reminds me of my conversation with e yesterday. We have not met for years and we discussed about our views on relationship and each found out weird stuff on each other. Anyway, E commented that he really spoiled the market for anyone that came along later. Actually I do not think this is true. I shall continue reading i Love to find out.

Telling about my blog

Hakim and I are discussing about blogging now

I am so going back...

only 5 mins here

Whatif

I am a deep thinker, although I know sometimes I do appear bimbotic.

This poem by Shel Silverstein describes me perfectly, and also my friend who spent all night drinking coffee and thinking about things that should not bother us too much, if only we dare to do something about it. I know I am a wimp, but my friend's not. My friend's just despondent. My friend should not let whatifs manifest.

I know I have loads of whatifs but I know that even if I should be wimpy now, I will get out of my box one day or soon. SO FRIEND, GET OUT AND START THINKING STRAIGHT!

Whatif

Last night, while I lay thinking here,
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:
Whatif I'm dumb in school?
Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
Whatif I get beat up?
Whatif there's poison in my cup?
Whatif I start to cry?
Whatif I get sick and die?
Whatif I flunk that test?
Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
Whatif nobody likes me?
Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
Whatif I don't grow talle?
Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
Whatif the fish won't bite?
Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
Whatif they start a war?
Whatif my parents get divorced?
Whatif the bus is late?
Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
Whatif I tear my pants?
Whatif I never learn to dance?
Everything seems well, and then
the nighttime Whatifs strike again!

I Love My Mulberry Cat

For short, I'll just name it Mulberry. I think Pebble wouldn't mind it that much...

Thanks for putting so much though into my gift. Appreciate it.

I Love My Book

Thanks for the book. I love it!

Tim Burton's: The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy

Good Stuff

Brings back so many memories...






http://www.usdudes.com/archives/2007/05/20/why-u-so-like-dat-a-tribute/

The Complexity of My Mind

Contrary to popular belief, I am actually not the "Shi San Dian" that many think I am. I do have quite a number of philosophies in life. I just thought of this argument. (N's so gonna kill me)

Premise 1: Girls are emotional
Premise 2: N's emotional
Conclusion: Therefore, N's a girl :p

Ok, now I'm just waiting for hate calls and howlers. LOL

It is you (That I've Loved) - Dana Glover

Decided

Saw something from T & Co website that would be very meaningful. Called them and it's available here. Shall buy it then. It's just the thing I would love to give away. I am sure it would be appropriate. Sigh.

That Time of the Year Again

It is coming to that time of the year again. I haven't bought a gift. Not very sure if I should even call...

If I don't, I will feel guilty.
If I do, I really am not sure what's the point of it all

SUCKER FOR PUNISHMENT

Outside the Box Thinking

A knock from Terry Tates will do the job...

The Curse of the Box

I just realised that after divulging what's in my box, it really seems like a one way track. Is there really no way to turn around and take my time to smell the flowers? Someone told me that I may miss many cars passing by but do I really want to hitch a ride? If the rides are for me they will come back for me again.

Are my prayers really going to realise in 3 years time or am I just giving myself an ultimatum again? Whatever it is, I have thought and dreamt about it. I know that now I may not have the will, but I will wake up to reality again. Yes, I am strong enough for that, albeit a bit old by then.

You Belong to Me - Jason Wade

Looking Back

2008 had been, well, how do I put it? I have grown stronger this year in terms of work definitely (I do not have anyone to cry to when I go home even when I am bullied to the extreme) but my romantic box is still as tightly sealed. Jan and I were talking about it just now, we simply do not want to be hurt anytime sooner.

Admittedly, Cupid might have shot some arrows my way but it sort of just grazed my skin. None of them really sustained my interest. Many of them could not match my level of wits or are just too shy. I'm not trying to say I am very intelligent but as one of my friends put it, I am quite a "fountain of useless information".

How do you go about explaining 8 years of failed relationship to another person? Many of you have stood by me all these years and saw how it died a natural death. Do not get me wrong. I am not bitter about it. In fact, I have learnt so much about myself and what others expect of me. I have grown to be a "fountain of useless information" because of him, if it were not for him, I may still be very ignorant. Yes, I am only as smart as my boyfriends.

Jan and I and Valentine's Day

Tomorrow is Jan's birthday so we were hanging out at Bliss just now. Next to come is Valentine's Day. She has me and I have her. LOL. Jalan Kayu's Mad Jack, here we come.

A Man's Requirements

I

Love me Sweet, with all thou art,
Feeling, thinking, seeing;
Love me in the lightest part,
Love me in full being.

II

Love me with thine open youth
In its frank surrender;
With the vowing of thy mouth,
With its silence tender.

III

Love me with thine azure eyes,
Made for earnest grantings;
Taking colour from the skies,
Can Heaven's truth be wanting?

IV

Love me with their lids, that fall
Snow-like at first meeting;
Love me with thine heart, that all
Neighbours then see beating.

V

Love me with thine hand stretched out
Freely -- open-minded:
Love me with thy loitering foot, --
Hearing one behind it.

VI

Love me with thy voice, that turns
Sudden faint above me;
Love me with thy blush that burns
When I murmur 'Love me!'

VII

Love me with thy thinking soul,
Break it to love-sighing;
Love me with thy thoughts that roll
On through living -- dying.

VIII

Love me in thy gorgeous airs,
When the world has crowned thee;
Love me, kneeling at thy prayers,
With the angels round thee.

IX

Love me pure, as muses do,
Up the woodlands shady:
Love me gaily, fast and true,
As a winsome lady.

X

Through all hopes that keep us brave,
Farther off or nigher,
Love me for the house and grave,
And for something higher.

XI

Thus, if thou wilt prove me, Dear,
Woman's love no fable,
I will love thee -- half a year --
As a man is able.

---Elizabeth Barrett Browning---

My Box and I

My box is a very private space.

Mr Mechanic

Mr Accountant, that's so conceited :P
Just because its car servicing its Mr Mechanic. This is called 'labeling'. LOL

Shorts

I need shorts!!! This was what my AM recorded during the meeting. Staff can wear shorts (not too short??????) for physical activities.

New Year Hopes

To a certain extent, I really do not dare to hope. I am worried that by giving myself ultimatums, I will dash all my hopes...